Thursday, February 19, 2004
had 'family day' with my 'sister' instead of valentine's day with sum1 special on 14th feb. hahaz.. din do much. just walked abt n sat down outside tangs to talk for a long time. but it was kinda nice talking to him abt things lah. i think i enjoy talking to pple who'll tell me wad they truly think n offer me a diff perspective on things. i'm sum1 who values honesty over most things i guess :)
had roadrun dat day too. q happy with myself for coming in 11th cos i really had to run lyk mad esp in the end. think the team kinda swept the top 20 positions.. mich got 7th, yihui 9th, me 11th, sofia 12th, yangyan 13th, joanne 14th, viv 15th, andrea 17th, peiying 18th. the guys team did well too but i cant rem who got wad position except dat jun huang got 2nd, huiyu 11th n henry 13th. anw it's been
10days n i still feel q gd. hahaz.. guess i'm really not lagging dis time. i'm still q surprised dat i dun even think of him much but i lyk it dis way. feels damn gd to b free from BGRs
i'm finally dropping lit! but dat's if it's approved lah.. i hope it is cos i really can take lit anymore. all the assignments n texts r killing me. i'm 100% sure i wun b going into a career dat has to do with lit so it's okay. i dun even haf ANY interest in it. just find it super boring n tedious to do lit (esp PC).. totally sux. i just hope i can continue talking my geog S. barber said he'll support me! yea~ but he also gaf me another essay to do along with his support. bleahs >.<
"expectations is the root of all heartache"--quoted shakespeare
ben saw dis on the mrt n he smsed it to me. really lyk the quote alot cos i think it's true. anw i think i'm a damn farny person. i actually enjoy confronting pple. hahaz.. i asked jeffrey if he hates me cos i dun believe ben when he said he doesnt. but i din get a reply so i suppose i'm right abt not believing ben. hahaz.. but it's okay. i can understand y i'm being hated. just feel v weird being teammates with sum1 who doesnt wan to talk to me unless he doesnt haf a choice -shrugs-
random thoughts at 7:02:00 AM
Friday, February 13, 2004
havent blogged in lyk a million yrs. hahaz.. lotsa things happened n i suppose the biggest event's dat me n him broke up. haf been thinking abt it for a long time, wondering if it was all worth it since he's the 1 i lyk most. almost every1 told me it's better for me to break, but i cldnt decide. in the end, i let him make the decision n it was to break up.
seriously, it's been 4days n i feel totally fine. in fact, i actually feel q gd abt it. expected to b q sad n stuffs, but i realise dat i'm not. yinchong said mayb it's cos i dun really love him dat much but i dun think dat's the case. i think i dun feel sad cos even though i lyk him alot, i noe dat he's not wad i wan for a bf, so break up le ke neng hui bi jiao hao :)
i told ben last dec dat if we break up again, i wun wan to patch. i dunno how he's feeling abt it now, but even if he asks me to patch, i'd just gif him a straight "no" w/o any hesitation. derwin was damn farny when i told him abt it. can still rem his expression n his incredulous "huh." hahaz.. vday's tmr but i dun really feel much abt it. wld'v loved to spend it with him but it's not meant to b so it's okay. if any1's feeling the loss, it's not me. haha.. bleahs
random thoughts at 7:02:00 AM
